A sweet friend just left my house tonight, and it was so refreshing to feel free of reservations. I did not know what was going to be my next step in our art project, conversation, or anything else. But it all seemed to be how it was meant to be. The difference maker for me was I was willing to accept, key word is accept, that I did not have it all or anything truly figured out for our time together.
I felt swept off my feet as I began reflecting on our time together. I realized how I can experience these qualities I long for -acceptance, freedom, vulnerability, & authenticity a lot more if I will let go. What I mean by letting go is not to be consumed with my worries, insecurities, and fears. I can choose to experience these amazing qualities that the Lord has given us in relationships if I will just accept and stop trying to perform. The truth is I am always learning no matter what I am doing because I can never be fully prepared for what is coming. This might sound like bad news, but really it is news that an adventure has arrived.
I am going to choose to have this perspective of my life being an adventure. I have hope in this adventure because I have a compass, so I am never without a source of direction. If I always have a source of direction then why do I constantly have this inner tug-o-war about stressing about the details of my adventure? I stress because I want to control the direction of this compass of mine.
How boring and predictable is that? Bleh. BUT what if I could rest in knowing that I will have someone leading the compass in a way that is for my best interest shouldn't I be excited?! Or shouldn't I be at ease that I will have a guide who will provide everything I need for every place He takes me? Sounds like the perfect trip to me. You would think my answer would be yes, but most of the moments in my life point to the answer no.
The solution for me enjoying this adventure is to surrender. I need to surrender from my ways into following His ways. I need to LET GO & LET HIM. John 3:30 says it perfectly, "He must increase, and I must decrease." I need to pray more, and control less. If I want my life to be an adventure I need to be okay with the "unknowness" of life. I need to learn to be okay with learning. As I would a hike, I have to take things in as they come. I need to be ready to not be ready. I need to accept that conditions may change at any point. I have to let myself appreciate the little steps as well as the BIG ones. I mean isn't the point of an adventure not so much the destination as it is getting to the destination? Oh goodness, I am so grateful for grace because I would be lost without it.
I felt swept off my feet as I began reflecting on our time together. I realized how I can experience these qualities I long for -acceptance, freedom, vulnerability, & authenticity a lot more if I will let go. What I mean by letting go is not to be consumed with my worries, insecurities, and fears. I can choose to experience these amazing qualities that the Lord has given us in relationships if I will just accept and stop trying to perform. The truth is I am always learning no matter what I am doing because I can never be fully prepared for what is coming. This might sound like bad news, but really it is news that an adventure has arrived.
I am going to choose to have this perspective of my life being an adventure. I have hope in this adventure because I have a compass, so I am never without a source of direction. If I always have a source of direction then why do I constantly have this inner tug-o-war about stressing about the details of my adventure? I stress because I want to control the direction of this compass of mine.
How boring and predictable is that? Bleh. BUT what if I could rest in knowing that I will have someone leading the compass in a way that is for my best interest shouldn't I be excited?! Or shouldn't I be at ease that I will have a guide who will provide everything I need for every place He takes me? Sounds like the perfect trip to me. You would think my answer would be yes, but most of the moments in my life point to the answer no.
The solution for me enjoying this adventure is to surrender. I need to surrender from my ways into following His ways. I need to LET GO & LET HIM. John 3:30 says it perfectly, "He must increase, and I must decrease." I need to pray more, and control less. If I want my life to be an adventure I need to be okay with the "unknowness" of life. I need to learn to be okay with learning. As I would a hike, I have to take things in as they come. I need to be ready to not be ready. I need to accept that conditions may change at any point. I have to let myself appreciate the little steps as well as the BIG ones. I mean isn't the point of an adventure not so much the destination as it is getting to the destination? Oh goodness, I am so grateful for grace because I would be lost without it.